Thursday, June 25, 2015

Filth (a movie)

Was browsing through the internet for movies.
I can say that I stumble upon this movie..
What caught my eyes were:
  1. James McAvoy
  2. Interesting story line
  3. Scottish
I am always a sucker balls for James McAvoy.. especially those blue eyes.. *fangirling*
But then again this movie is really hard to understand and thanks to Google.. 
It kind of clear some of my thoughts towards this movie.
The main character is Bruce Robertson. A Detective Sergeant,applying for a promotion to 
Detective Inspector.
As he have this mental health disorder,feeling weak and disgusted about himself. He keep on telling himself " I am in-charged of me". 
He don't trust anyone.. no friends except for Clifford Blades.
Always have "the game" going on, to be the winner in every "game" he plays with his colleague.
"Same rules apply" is his tag line because to him he's the sole winner of "the game"
Eyeing the promotion and getting it is his ultimate goal because he believe that that promotion will bring back his family to him.
Later in the movie his drug addiction and drinking became worst, and was diagnoses with \
bipolar disorder.
So whiskey,cocaine,sex and feeling superior were the only things he need.
He then realize how deep shit is he in after killing and realizing that he dress up as his wife just to "keep her close to him"  
There are some parts of the movie that were too dark to understand.. even with the help of subtitles I'm still kind of lost.
Well in the end he was demoted and he end his life.
After the whole movie I don't bloody understand why he kill himself..
Google was kind enough to shed some light to this dark comedy.
From what I understand is that he is no longer the ultimate winner of "the game" that he is playing and "the game" that he is so good at started to back fire him.
His mental disorder too help as to why he decided to end his life.
As a child he was always the "other one", family blame him for this brother's death and the feeling of inferior in him keeps on growing and growing even he tries to suppress it.
Plus his wife leaving him and not letting him go near to her daughter is too another reason why he has lose in "the game"
So the only solution to his life is death.
To free himself from illusions, self-abusing, loneliness. 
It let's me think of the society now. People are doing whatever they could either one way or another to get what they want, or to be the ultimate winner.
We do have "the game" playing in the society.. is either you join or you ignore it.
Winning "the game" of cause will boost up your confidence level especially if you compete with higher level management.
But then again, is winning "the game" important? or it is just a invisible game that society create to see how you carry yourself or how well you play or how far you are willing to take the game to or how you handle the pressure?
It's all mental game that you are playing.. as why one of the comment said
"Same rules apply = no rules= all system go"
This movie have lots of part to think about.
Love is cruel so do Life.

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